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This touched my heart on April 13, 2010 with
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Tancy Holden - self portrait
Yesterday at six o’clock I was fluffing pillows
baking quiche
and admiring lilacs, wisteria and red buds.
I was looking forward to dinner with friends.
I was slipping into something more comfortable
and watching my dogs chase each other around my yard.
Yesterday at six o’clock I was patting myself on the back for escaping the gridlock that accompanied the nuclear summit.
Yesterday at six o’clock Tancy was riding her bicycle at 12th and New York Avenue
Maybe she was enjoying the weather
Looking forward to hanging paintings for her show
or playing the piano or horseback riding
She didn’t expect to be struck by a truck providing support for the nuclear summit.
She didn’t expect to die on April 12th.
Many years ago Tancy taught me an important lesson
her sudden passing has taught me another.
About the Author
I sat at the table in the little house next to the creek that was also just beginning to thaw and wrote.
Pye Dives for the Oarlock
Getting Baptized
What I Left Behind
Running
Fishing With Mama
They made their way from memory to story and then I stopped.
I pushed aside Life Story and went kayaking on the creek now completely thawed and filled with spot and sailboats fishing boats and swans and just a few jellyfish. When I started again I wrote in a tiny room
I could hardly breathe in that room.
But I wasn’t there to breathe I was there to write.
Back To Embudo
Stephen Moves Into His Studio And I Get Drunk
Mama Dies
The Festival
I added story like a child adding ornaments to an already full tree.
Which was my favorite?
Where did it belong?
“I remember when I collected this one.”
“I don’t care for that one any more but I cannot discard it yet.”
Some had poetry.
Some had pictures.
Some even had recipes.
Quince Preserves.
NC Bar-b-queue.
Collards.
It was a feast.
I fed bits of Life Story to friends then to strangers who swallowed it whole and said “May we have some more, please?”
I gave it to them and went back to make more Life Story.
When it was finished I sent Life Story on a journey with only a flimsy letter to keep it company.
I was disappointed when Life Story came home with an even shorter rejection letter.
Brenda, I am sorry to hear about your friend’s sudden passing. It must be a horrible time for you. May her soul be with you always.
Bob